So afraid this mask I wear
Can be seen through
Don't want people to know
How vulnerable I am
Not so tough
I'm scared to death
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Do not worry
For God is there
Through the darkest night
And hardest fight
God is there
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The waves wash over the sand
As your forgiveness washes over me
The ocean water comes over me and cleanses
As you overshadow and cleanse me
Oh Lord how I love you
I will bow down to you forever
For I am your beloved
And you are my saviour
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Nebulizers, vests, machines oh my
How my life depends on you
Enzymes, antibiotics and zantac too
I swallow you day in and day out
This my ode to you
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The world says I'm nothing
God says I'm everything
The world says I'm crazy
God says He made me
and He doesn't make mistakes
The world tells me what is impossible
God tells me what is possible
The world says I will never
Amount to anything
God says He has plans for me
The world says I am weak
God gives me strength
The world knocks me down
God picks me back up
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Thursday, June 7, 2012
I'm a butterfly
Right now I feel closer to a butterfly than ever
Keep in mind when its time to break out of the cocoon the butterfly must do it alone. It anyone or anything attempts to help it...well the butterfly will never fly and most likely die because its breaking out the cocoon that strengthens the butterfly's wings and allows it to fly. It has to struggle on its own. Noone else can break that butterfly out of its cocoon.
I'm in a similar place right now. It comes down to me. No matter how much it pains my family they can't do this for me...I have to do it alone with God. My therapist can give me advice until she's blue in the face but its up to me to apply it to my life. I'm on a journey that only I can walk
If I want to be able to fly then I have to do this. I have to do things that are uncomfortable. My loved ones have to watch me struggle and do nothing but cheer me on. I have to take those steps so that one day my wings will be strong and I can fly.
Right now I feel like I'm trying to break out my cocoon. I have no idea how long it will take. Did you know some butterflies stay in their cocoon merely weeks while some spend whole seasons in one? I don't know how long it will take me to break out and I can only pray that when I do my wings are ready to fly
Its a hard thing. I feel like a caterpillar. Like I'm crawling along and its so hard to imagine myself as a buttefly...no longer crawling but flying! Sometimes this cocoon feels like its suffocating me
I want easy and fast answers and thats not the way this works. Sure easy and fast might help now but it would cripple me later...I wouldn't be able to fly because there would be no struggle. So here I am on a long and lonely road. Everytime I think I'm not going to make it, I think about the butterfly and about how its struggle is what makes it strong enough to fly. That it a powerful metaphor for my life right now.
Keep in mind when its time to break out of the cocoon the butterfly must do it alone. It anyone or anything attempts to help it...well the butterfly will never fly and most likely die because its breaking out the cocoon that strengthens the butterfly's wings and allows it to fly. It has to struggle on its own. Noone else can break that butterfly out of its cocoon.
I'm in a similar place right now. It comes down to me. No matter how much it pains my family they can't do this for me...I have to do it alone with God. My therapist can give me advice until she's blue in the face but its up to me to apply it to my life. I'm on a journey that only I can walk
If I want to be able to fly then I have to do this. I have to do things that are uncomfortable. My loved ones have to watch me struggle and do nothing but cheer me on. I have to take those steps so that one day my wings will be strong and I can fly.
Right now I feel like I'm trying to break out my cocoon. I have no idea how long it will take. Did you know some butterflies stay in their cocoon merely weeks while some spend whole seasons in one? I don't know how long it will take me to break out and I can only pray that when I do my wings are ready to fly
Its a hard thing. I feel like a caterpillar. Like I'm crawling along and its so hard to imagine myself as a buttefly...no longer crawling but flying! Sometimes this cocoon feels like its suffocating me
I want easy and fast answers and thats not the way this works. Sure easy and fast might help now but it would cripple me later...I wouldn't be able to fly because there would be no struggle. So here I am on a long and lonely road. Everytime I think I'm not going to make it, I think about the butterfly and about how its struggle is what makes it strong enough to fly. That it a powerful metaphor for my life right now.
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