I want a break. I want a week to do nothing but stay in bed and sleep. A week where I don't have to talk to anyone, don't have to answer the phone, don't have to clean anything.
I think butterflies are on to something...I think a cocoon is brilliant. Quiet time to change, to become something new. Where you are alone, not judged, not expected to do anything but to grow and change. And where each step makes you stronger....the first being breaking out of the cocoon (did you know if a butterfly has help...like a well meaning person that sometimes its wings neever strengthen enough to fly...the struggle is what strengthens the wings) and then the first flight and so forth.
I admit it...a lot of times I would rather face things by myself. I work my problems out best alone (well with God of course). I like my quiet time.
Don't get me wrong...I like to be by myself but I also like to be around my family. I just need alone time too. I always have...even as a child I would shut myself in my room with a stack of books and stay there for hours.
But I only wish it was possible to put myself in a cocoon for a little while!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
So much to be blog about....
I've got tons to blog about...I decided to start in chronological order. So we will start with wednesday and my doctor's appointment. And then I will move on to my brother's wedding weekend
SO I had an appointment wednesday...mostly for my mom's sake so she would know I was in no danger of dying on her over the weekend. And to get rx for antibiotic and steroids....I didn't want to end up in a strange hospital or having to see a strange doctor!
I left the doctor feeling like an 80 year old though :-) Because I got the standard "at your age wtih CF you have to be really careful because something small can turn life threatening very easy". And that any little changes no matter how small or insignificant need to be reported to her. In other words as we all know...my health is really fragile. But yeah I left feeling like an 80 year old. Which I guess I am actually past middle age for someone with CF.
On the good side...my lungs sounded good. Which they should with all the hours of work I do!! I would hope with 2-4hrs of treatments a day they would sound decent. And remember this was about 2hrs after my treatments and 3 puffs of symbicort.
Next up...wedding weekend!!! Stay tuned....
SO I had an appointment wednesday...mostly for my mom's sake so she would know I was in no danger of dying on her over the weekend. And to get rx for antibiotic and steroids....I didn't want to end up in a strange hospital or having to see a strange doctor!
I left the doctor feeling like an 80 year old though :-) Because I got the standard "at your age wtih CF you have to be really careful because something small can turn life threatening very easy". And that any little changes no matter how small or insignificant need to be reported to her. In other words as we all know...my health is really fragile. But yeah I left feeling like an 80 year old. Which I guess I am actually past middle age for someone with CF.
On the good side...my lungs sounded good. Which they should with all the hours of work I do!! I would hope with 2-4hrs of treatments a day they would sound decent. And remember this was about 2hrs after my treatments and 3 puffs of symbicort.
Next up...wedding weekend!!! Stay tuned....
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
50 random facts about me
So I am bored and I like a challenge. So heres 100 random facts about me....or as close as I can get to 100
1. I love the color pink
2.I love NCIS
3. Every NCIS what character are you quiz shows me as McGee...am I really that geeky?
4. Contary to what some people think, I am not an only child. I have a brother and Sister (in law)
5. I collect stuffed monkeys....I don't know why...I just think they are cute
6. reading is my favorite past time
7. I learned to read right after I turned 4 and in 7th grade tested as above college level for my reading level. Once I learned I never stopped!
8. Ellie is my 3rd golden retriever
9. I'm a Christian...was baptized at 9 years old. BUt really just in the last9 years or so really taken hold of my faith
10. I'm shy until you get to know me...then you might not ever shut me up
11.my brother will kill me for this one....but I learned to ride a two wheeler without training wheels before him (he's 3 years older). I was just the fearless one
12. Butterflies are very special to me and a special symbol between me and God
13.I was homeschooled for 6 years and loved every minute of it. public school was torture for me after 5th grade
14.I have cystic fibrosis but I'm determined to live my life to the fullest~
15. I've lived in the same house since I was 8 and have lived in the same city and neighborhood all my life
16.I play a mean game of uno
17. I am terrified of bugs especially grasshoppers
18.Mysteries are my preferred fiction genre when it comes to books
19. My family is extremely close and I am who I am today because of them
20.I can swallow 15 pills at once
21.Jigsaw puzzles is a hobby of mine
22. my goal is to be a published writer
23. I like to take computers apart
24. I hate onions
25. I've kept a journal for many years
26. As a kid I was barbie obsessed
27.I love the beach and have a shell and rock collection
29.I like classic TV shows
30.I really don't care what people think/say about me. They can like me for me or not like me...I'm not changing!
31. Don't make me mad...I will kick your butt
32. I have this thing about the dark...I don't like it!
33. Ellie is my best friend...I love that dog!!!!
34. Okay actually my mom is my real (person) best friend but Ellie is 2nd
35. You are most likely to find me in either A) pajamas or B) a t-shirt, jeans and converse
36. I'm a messy person but an organized messy person!
37. unsweet tea is my favorite drink
38. I'm a computer whiz
39. I love my ereader
40. I read on average a book a day (about 400 pages)
41. I read really really fast but I can recite back to you what I've read
42. I can sleep anywhere, anytime
43. I like playing scrabble....old fashioned board game and on the pc
44. you wake me up too early and you better watch out because you will probably get a pillow in the face
45. I like crime tv shows (forensic files etc) but I scare myself silly when I watch them
46. I'm a lot tougher than I look...I've kicked CFs butt this long and I don't intend to give up
47.I'm not a morning or a night person...I'm an afternoon person
48. The ER here and the RT department and some of the nurses know me by name. As do the CT department people. Yeah I spend a lot of time at the hospital
49. my favorite meal...salmon patties and mashed potatoes
50. I collect cool pens
1. I love the color pink
2.I love NCIS
3. Every NCIS what character are you quiz shows me as McGee...am I really that geeky?
4. Contary to what some people think, I am not an only child. I have a brother and Sister (in law)
5. I collect stuffed monkeys....I don't know why...I just think they are cute
6. reading is my favorite past time
7. I learned to read right after I turned 4 and in 7th grade tested as above college level for my reading level. Once I learned I never stopped!
8. Ellie is my 3rd golden retriever
9. I'm a Christian...was baptized at 9 years old. BUt really just in the last9 years or so really taken hold of my faith
10. I'm shy until you get to know me...then you might not ever shut me up
11.my brother will kill me for this one....but I learned to ride a two wheeler without training wheels before him (he's 3 years older). I was just the fearless one
12. Butterflies are very special to me and a special symbol between me and God
13.I was homeschooled for 6 years and loved every minute of it. public school was torture for me after 5th grade
14.I have cystic fibrosis but I'm determined to live my life to the fullest~
15. I've lived in the same house since I was 8 and have lived in the same city and neighborhood all my life
16.I play a mean game of uno
17. I am terrified of bugs especially grasshoppers
18.Mysteries are my preferred fiction genre when it comes to books
19. My family is extremely close and I am who I am today because of them
20.I can swallow 15 pills at once
21.Jigsaw puzzles is a hobby of mine
22. my goal is to be a published writer
23. I like to take computers apart
24. I hate onions
25. I've kept a journal for many years
26. As a kid I was barbie obsessed
27.I love the beach and have a shell and rock collection
29.I like classic TV shows
30.I really don't care what people think/say about me. They can like me for me or not like me...I'm not changing!
31. Don't make me mad...I will kick your butt
32. I have this thing about the dark...I don't like it!
33. Ellie is my best friend...I love that dog!!!!
34. Okay actually my mom is my real (person) best friend but Ellie is 2nd
35. You are most likely to find me in either A) pajamas or B) a t-shirt, jeans and converse
36. I'm a messy person but an organized messy person!
37. unsweet tea is my favorite drink
38. I'm a computer whiz
39. I love my ereader
40. I read on average a book a day (about 400 pages)
41. I read really really fast but I can recite back to you what I've read
42. I can sleep anywhere, anytime
43. I like playing scrabble....old fashioned board game and on the pc
44. you wake me up too early and you better watch out because you will probably get a pillow in the face
45. I like crime tv shows (forensic files etc) but I scare myself silly when I watch them
46. I'm a lot tougher than I look...I've kicked CFs butt this long and I don't intend to give up
47.I'm not a morning or a night person...I'm an afternoon person
48. The ER here and the RT department and some of the nurses know me by name. As do the CT department people. Yeah I spend a lot of time at the hospital
49. my favorite meal...salmon patties and mashed potatoes
50. I collect cool pens
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Its a Ellie day....
Or yesterday was. I have posted before about how ellie is TERRIFIED of thunder. Think panic attacks, trying to hide and just freaked out.
So its south carolina in the summer...it storms...a lot. Yesterday we had a severe thunderstorm. I gave Ellie ace right when it started thundering but it takes about an hour to kick in.
She went crazy. Its hard trying to restrain an 85 pound dog. She got away from me at one point and I started hearing noises. She managed to crawl under my parents bed. I figured hey she's found a hiding place so I'll just leave her there. Yeah right....about 10 minutes later I hear her trying to get out from under the bed. Guess what? Yep she was stuck. My mom had to lift the bed up while I pulled Ellie out.
Fast forward a little. Bing rumble of thunder and once again Ellie takes off. Some time passes and I decide I better go see where she is. I check up beds, in closets and finally go in the bathroom. Where is Ellie? In the bath tub hiding! I have pictures that I will have to post later.
I guess if we ever have a tornado I won't have to worry about ellie being safe...
So its south carolina in the summer...it storms...a lot. Yesterday we had a severe thunderstorm. I gave Ellie ace right when it started thundering but it takes about an hour to kick in.
She went crazy. Its hard trying to restrain an 85 pound dog. She got away from me at one point and I started hearing noises. She managed to crawl under my parents bed. I figured hey she's found a hiding place so I'll just leave her there. Yeah right....about 10 minutes later I hear her trying to get out from under the bed. Guess what? Yep she was stuck. My mom had to lift the bed up while I pulled Ellie out.
Fast forward a little. Bing rumble of thunder and once again Ellie takes off. Some time passes and I decide I better go see where she is. I check up beds, in closets and finally go in the bathroom. Where is Ellie? In the bath tub hiding! I have pictures that I will have to post later.
I guess if we ever have a tornado I won't have to worry about ellie being safe...
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
books and things
First off...after much drama I have my bridesmaid dress!! And it fits!! Infact it needs to be taken in a little. And hemmed. Other than that its good. Beautiful dress and I am so excited for the wedding. Only took 26 years to get a sister lol
I have my PC brain back and am no longer sharing a computer so hopefully I will blog more
Books.....this a favorite books post. It might get kinda long cause I have a lot of favorites. No particular order.
Fiction Series:
The alphabet series (a is for alibi etc) by Sue Grafton
The stephanie plum books by Janet Evanovich
The O'Malley series by Dee Henderson
The cape refuge series by Terri Blackstock
The Sookie Stackhouse books by Charlaine Harris
The Harry Potter series by J.K Rowling (have I ever told the story of my dad searching all over charleston for the 6th harry potter? And it got passed to about 20 people after I finished becasue noone could find a copy. my dad found 1 at kmart in charleston. needless to say I preordered the 7th!)
The mitford years books by jan Karon
Enola Holmes series- can't remember the author (aimed at teens but really enjoyed them)
Standalone Fiction:
Shadows of lancaster county by Mindy Starnes Clark
Whispers of the bayou- same author
Secrets of harmony grove- same author
under the cajun moon- same author (but these 4 books have nothing to do with eachother)
Murder on the orient express- agatha christie
And then there were none -agatha christie
A thousand tomorrows- karen kingsbury
Secret life of bees- Sue monk Kidd
Where the heart is- billie letts
House- ted dekker and frank peretti (really really scary and creepy though...like didn't sleep for a few nights)
The Shack-young
the mermaid chair- sue monk kidd
Saving sarah cain- beverely lewis
Redeeming Love- Francine Rivers
Christy- Catherine Marshall
Hunger Games trilogy
The UGlies series
Non Fiction
Robyn's book- Robyn Miller
Hidden Joy- Wendy Blight
Bad girls of the Bible series - Liz Curtis Higgs
Anything by Max Lucado
Raggamuffin Christian, Abba's Child and signature of Jesus by Brennan Manning
Mere Christianity and the problem of pain by C.S Lewis
The Martian child (can't remember the author)
Utmost for His highest- Oswald Chambers
When God weeps and Heaven by Joni Eareckson Tada
The Case for Christ and Case for faith by Lee Strobel
Zlata's Diary
The hiding place by Corrie Ten Boom
Homer's Odyssey - Gwen Cooper
Your scars are beautiful to God- Sharon Jaynes
Laughing in the dark-- chonda pierce
Choosing to SEE - Mary Beth Chapman (AWESOME book!)
Childrens Books:
All the fudge books- judy blume
Ramona Books- Beverley Cleary
American girl books
Diary of a wimpy kid
Summer Hill Secrets- Beverley Lewis
Ivy League mysteries by Karen Petit (I actually got to meet Karen and Ivy the chow)
You are special- max lucado
Mr. Poppers Penguins
Because of Winn Dixie
The story girl -LM Montgomery
Pollyanna
Mouse and the motorcycle
Stuart Little
Alice in wonderland
Nancy Drew books
I have my PC brain back and am no longer sharing a computer so hopefully I will blog more
Books.....this a favorite books post. It might get kinda long cause I have a lot of favorites. No particular order.
Fiction Series:
The alphabet series (a is for alibi etc) by Sue Grafton
The stephanie plum books by Janet Evanovich
The O'Malley series by Dee Henderson
The cape refuge series by Terri Blackstock
The Sookie Stackhouse books by Charlaine Harris
The Harry Potter series by J.K Rowling (have I ever told the story of my dad searching all over charleston for the 6th harry potter? And it got passed to about 20 people after I finished becasue noone could find a copy. my dad found 1 at kmart in charleston. needless to say I preordered the 7th!)
The mitford years books by jan Karon
Enola Holmes series- can't remember the author (aimed at teens but really enjoyed them)
Standalone Fiction:
Shadows of lancaster county by Mindy Starnes Clark
Whispers of the bayou- same author
Secrets of harmony grove- same author
under the cajun moon- same author (but these 4 books have nothing to do with eachother)
Murder on the orient express- agatha christie
And then there were none -agatha christie
A thousand tomorrows- karen kingsbury
Secret life of bees- Sue monk Kidd
Where the heart is- billie letts
House- ted dekker and frank peretti (really really scary and creepy though...like didn't sleep for a few nights)
The Shack-young
the mermaid chair- sue monk kidd
Saving sarah cain- beverely lewis
Redeeming Love- Francine Rivers
Christy- Catherine Marshall
Hunger Games trilogy
The UGlies series
Non Fiction
Robyn's book- Robyn Miller
Hidden Joy- Wendy Blight
Bad girls of the Bible series - Liz Curtis Higgs
Anything by Max Lucado
Raggamuffin Christian, Abba's Child and signature of Jesus by Brennan Manning
Mere Christianity and the problem of pain by C.S Lewis
The Martian child (can't remember the author)
Utmost for His highest- Oswald Chambers
When God weeps and Heaven by Joni Eareckson Tada
The Case for Christ and Case for faith by Lee Strobel
Zlata's Diary
The hiding place by Corrie Ten Boom
Homer's Odyssey - Gwen Cooper
Your scars are beautiful to God- Sharon Jaynes
Laughing in the dark-- chonda pierce
Choosing to SEE - Mary Beth Chapman (AWESOME book!)
Childrens Books:
All the fudge books- judy blume
Ramona Books- Beverley Cleary
American girl books
Diary of a wimpy kid
Summer Hill Secrets- Beverley Lewis
Ivy League mysteries by Karen Petit (I actually got to meet Karen and Ivy the chow)
You are special- max lucado
Mr. Poppers Penguins
Because of Winn Dixie
The story girl -LM Montgomery
Pollyanna
Mouse and the motorcycle
Stuart Little
Alice in wonderland
Nancy Drew books
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