10 months

Today has been exactly 10 months since "IT" happened.

Let me just say...time heals all wounds is so false. Its been a rollercoaster of a 10 months. Some days it feels like it was years ago, some days it feels like it was yesterday. Some images don't fade and I doubt I ever forget his face

In some wyas its harder now than it was right after it happened. Loads of people were there for me then but as time goes on, people move on...they forget...they are afraid to bring it up....they think I should have moved on. So now its me, God, my blog, my journal and my golden retriever on this long hard journey

I know healing can and will come but it takes time....way more time than people think. Rape is a life changing, traumatizing thing.

Sometimes it just feels like life is never going to give me a break. As if major health issues weren't enough lets add rape to the list of things to go wrong in rebekah's life. Sorry for the temporary pity party.....prednisone

Seriously though...I am not over, it still haunts me every day. I am working through it but it is a very lonely journey

Random facts about moi

So I'm tired and uncreative tonight so sue me ;-)

So here are some random facts about me.............

Pink is my favorite color
I love butterflies...something so spiritual and symbolic about them...butterflies are a special thing between me and God.
I also love dolphins
Ham and pineapple pizza is my favorite food
I love music
I read all the time
I love to write and have been told I'm very gifted at it
I've been called a genius....take that as you will
People fascinate me...I love to hear people's stories and learning things about people
I'm a Christian though I don't really identify with any particular denomination. I'm just a Christian :-)
NCIS is my favorite show...you could say I'm slightly obsessed
I'm a guitar hero addict
I love buttered popcorn jelly bellies
I hosted Burke P bear as part of Burke's Tour
I very much believe in angels and that God gives us each a guardian angel
Ben Hur, Redeeming love and Ender's game are my favorite books
I'm very sentimental
I'm a little too empathetic and sensitive
I've seen every episode of ER
Ellie my golden retriever is my best friend
I quote movies and NCIS all the time
Happy Bunny is cool
I raised my cat Dusty from an orphaned 3wk old kitten
I collect crosses...I didn't start out to but it just kinda happened and well the Cross is such an important symbol
I like to sleep